"My grace is sufficient"

God is not surprised by my sin. This is a lesson that is really hard to learn. I feel so guilty when I hurt someone. When I feel that I may have offended someone, or when I have bothered someone, or if I have possibly made a poor decision; it haunts me. It follows me. My guilt and shame often cause a rift in my relationship with those close to me, as well as with the Lord. But He is not surprised. It is hard for me to reconcile this. I consider myself as someone who is well aware of His grace, but then, I start to believe that I have the ability to surprise and disappoint my Father. I come before him in great shame. This shame is not humility. It's  shame that stems from pride. As I confess my sin before God, I feel like I owe Him something. I feel like I should pay for my sin. It is not easy to contextualize that His death on the cross is enough. He changed history that day on calvary, but I start to see it as if it were a mishap. I laugh in the face of His death when I believ...